I have had a busy mind, a busy body, but a sleeping spirit. All of my insides feel like they aren’t there, or maybe they are but they aren’t doing anything except taking up space. There are too many thoughts rattling around in my head; so many that I’m unsure if I am thinking at all.
I want to feel something moving. Even the tiniest emotion could build me back up. I can’t even feel my heart beat when I think of Him. Why can’t I feel anything? Why does everything scare me, but I don’t feel the fear? I know it’s there simply because it holds me back, but I’d rather feel fear than nothing at all.