You stopped coming back for me.
You kept needing more time,
But I was the one who stopped keeping up.
Your mind wanders in ways I can’t understand.
I could only wait around on you for so long,
Because you were too preoccupied with running away from me.
I wish I at least knew what you kept running to.
You just couldn’t stick around for me.
I was constantly switching between hope and heartbreak,
Until I finally realized you never actually asked me to wait.
I thought you were telling me to give it time.
You never gave me an end date to this pause on us,
Because it wasn’t a pause after all.
It was an indefinite ending.
It was an easy out.
There was never going to be an “us,”
Just a constant stream of hope on my end.
How foolish I must seem to you right now.
I didn’t mean to assume.
That’s not something I usually do,
But maybe I can’t help how much I care about you.
Wanting me was not on your mind.
Maybe it was on the day we first met.
You have a big heart to protect,
And I’ve become notorious for breaking it.
I don’t know why I had to wait so long to figure that out.