One of my closest friends often tells me, both in admiration and out of concern, that I’m too nice. I let people walk all over me. I can’t stand up for myself or say what I’m really thinking because I’m too concerned with hurting somebody.
Personally, I disagree. I know I’ve done my fair share of damage. Which is why I refuse to do any more, even if it’s at my own expense.
However, there are times when I am eaten alive by thoughts of, “why?” Why wasn’t my best enough? Why can’t I get out what I put in to people? Why does it seem like almost everyone leaves once they get to know me?
I have to force my mind to go other places, but it always drifts back to all the endless “why’s.” I’ll tell myself that I’m just having a pity party and it’s all a part of life and no matter what, God is on my side.
But it still stings.
What I am learning, and what I want to share, is that sometimes you’re not enough. Sometimes, you give something or somebody your absolute best, and it still amounts to nothing. Sometimes, people will tell you one thing and their actions tell you something entirely different. Sometimes, you are let down. And it has nothing to do with you.
Some things really are out of your control. As cliche as this expression may sound, you really do have to simply “give it to God.” When you have done all you can and you are at a loss for what else you can do, hand it over to God and ask for His help.
Most of the time, every situation in our lives requires effort on our part, but there are a few situations that will come up in which there is truly nothing you can do. It might take a little time and a lot of praying to figure it out, but you will know when to pass it to God and say, “there’s nothing more I can do, please help.” (As a side note, yes you should always give your problems to God, but I’m specifically referring to the times when you feel there is nothing you can do and you need Him to intervene, whatever that means for your personal situation).
A lot of the time, all you need to do is ask for help. It doesn’t matter what you ask for, as long as you ask, because you’ll never get anything otherwise. You just have to try. In the end, He will give you what you need. It might not be what you want, but it will be what you need. Unlike with people, who are inherently selfish and can only give you so much, your best interest is God’s concern 100% of the time.
So, even if you feel completely lost, confused, alone, whatever it is that you are feeling, you are never truly alone. God made you to survive, and He wants to help. He is on your side. Your emotions, what you’re going through (no matter how small it may seem), it all matters to Him. What you feel is never invalid, and no favor is too small or too big for God.
Let me know what you think!